Anxiety…

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Should I open the door? Should I go out? It’s almost 7 in the morning. Is it dangerous? No. Why would it be dangerous at this hour of the day? But, what if he is there outside? Just outside my door? Waiting for me?

Okay. I should probably calm down.

So… What if that person who I don’t want to face, somehow is really desperate to meet me? Should I open the door? Okay. No. I will wait. 

What if my intuitions are right and the person might be waiting for me? No. stop. He can’t do anything. Or wait…can he? What should I do? What should I? Last night he called me too… I didn’t respond. Was it a mistake that I didn’t respond? Should I confront him? Will it be wise to do that? 

Meh.. nobody is outside. I AM overthinking. Okay, lets go.

Umm..i think i should wait a bit more. Should i call somebody up? Lemme peek through the hole…umm I can’t see anyone. What if he is there outside but not just outside my door?

He is a psycho he can do anything for his pleasure. He has hurt me over and over… Again and again..it was not my responsibility to wait till he got mentally fine. Why should I be babysitting somebody else’s child? What if he has again come prying over me? He is an animal. He is wild. He might be childish but he is dangerous, dangerous for me, my life. 

I should open the door and face him. I will smack his face and show him that I AM NOT A MERE WOMAN.. I AM A FIERCE LADY. I DON’T NEED ATTENTION..I NEED RESPECT AND THAT’S HOW MY PARENTS TAUGHT ME TO STAND IN THE SOCIETY. I DON’T BOW DOWN INFRONT OF ANYONE. I HOLD MY HEAD HIGH BECAUSE I AM NOT AFRAID. I HAVE MY FAMILY AND MY FRIENDS WHO STAND FOR ME, WITH ME. 

I open the door and walk down the aisle like a lioness.

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